All I Ever Wanted

Oh, how embarrassing this is.
I leaned in; lips puckered, eyes shut tight,
To have you tilt back, mouth wide open, eyes bewildered.
Oh, this is awkward.
I thought you were a signal in a world full of dial tones.
But I was wrong.
Oh, of course I was.
All this time, my impression was that there was this undeniable spark to our friendship,
And I tried to make that sparkly friendship into a fiery romance.
Oh, how I failed.
My cheeks are crimson; my tears are rapidly blurring my vision.
A fat drop rolls down from my eye, offering relief to my burning face.
Oh, I need a drink.
There is not a lot in this world that I have for myself.
So why could you not be the one thing that I did not have to share?
Oh, all I ever wanted was you.